Xanga Days

I miss the xanga days. I want to go back to xanga, but I don’t even know how to use it anymore. I like the good, old, original xanga style. There are too much useless applications on it now, which makes it ugly and confusing.I was reminiscing on the old days. Man, every time I read my old xanga entries, I find it so funny and relaxing at the same time. I started xanga when I was in junior high (my xanga is 2148 days old). My junior high entries are super immature. I uSeD tO tYpE lYkE tHiS. During my early high school years, my entries were mostly about Korean entertainment. I was such a giddy fan-girl. In my later high school years, I was so depressed and emo. Then, I used xanga for mostly Korean drama/movie reviews, so I “tried” making it professional-sounding. It’s fun to read the sudden changes in writing style and changes in entry themes.

Every time I read my xanga entries, I can’t help but want to go back: back to when it was still ok to be immature, ok to be unsure about the future, being a kid/teen.

In the midst of it all, I still mentioned my status on my spiritual life. I think I may be struggling more now, just because I know more and I am being attacked more.

As I was reading my old entries, I came across a lot of entries in which I used Korean. I was “fobby” back then, and I’m still pretty fobby now, but at the same time I still don’t like to speak Korean publicly because of my white-washed childhood experience. Anyways, the Korean entries I wrote before I converted to firefox turned into jibberish. My computer can’t decipher it. I can’t understand some entries because it’s written in all Korean/jibberish. Like what the heck is this supposed to mean?

Monday, October 24, 2005:

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Does anyone know how to fix that problem?

I used to be so xanga popular. I got so many “eprops” and I had a lot of random xanga friends who I never met in real life. I looked back on my old eprop comment-ers and I don’t remember half of them even though we used to “tight” xanga friends. I used to think it was so cool being able to talk to someone from a different state, such as California, or a different country like the Netherlands and Singapore. Now I have no random friends on this blog. HA.

I remember when I used to photoshop a lot, make a lot of xanga layouts, play around with HTML. I can’t do any of that anymore. Sad. I got into sports and then had to focus on SAT,ACT,SATII, college crap. Sigh I have no talent at all.

Now I’m just rambling.

Oh I made this site when I was a senior. I spent 6 hours on it… It was a project for my AP Psych class. I like it still.
http://www.xanga.com/drug_effects

I have nothing else to say.

지금의 기분: 그냥 멍, 우울, discouraged, thinking about the past.

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