I was feeling very stressed and depressed because my “life/vision” seemed blurred in every way.
The good GPA that God blessed me with was falling into the pits. I didn’t know if I could stand the stress of constantly thinking about 4.0s, getting into med school, etc. I was really debating if I should transfer into engineering. Medicine vs. engineering. Both are really difficult, what am I thinking? I wanted to go into special education too. I was so frustrated that nothing was going “right.”
I hate showing tears in front of other people because it’s a sign that I am weak.
This was how I was feeling, and I guess I’m still struggling a lot with it, but I was moved today.
Here I am at Your feet
In my brokenness complete
And I know I’m weak
I know I’m unworthy
To call upon your name
But because of grace
Because of your mercy
I stand here unashamed
I really have the desire to strive for You, but my sinful nature always gets in the way. Help me not to fall in the trap of the enemy, but to have complete trust in You.